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It documents the everyday contradictions of living with mental illness: feeling deeply inadequate while longing to be loved, and finding comfort in small joys like eating tteokbokki even on dark days.\u003c\/p\u003e","products":[{"product_id":"i-want-to-die-but-i-want-to-eat-tteokbokki-a-memoir-hardcover","title":"I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokbokki: A Memoir - Hardcover","description":"\u003cp\u003eby \u003cb\u003eBaek Sehee\u003c\/b\u003e (Author), \u003cb\u003eAnton Hur\u003c\/b\u003e (Translator)\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eNational Indie Bestseller\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eWorld Literature Today\u003c\/i\u003e Notable Translation of the Year\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSalon Favorite Book of the Year\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThe South Korean runaway bestseller, an intimate therapy memoir translated by International Booker Prize shortlisted Anton Hur. \u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003ci\u003ePSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you?\u003c\/i\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003e\u003cbr\u003eME: I don't know, I'm - what's the word - depressed? Do I have to go into detail?\u003c\/i\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eBaek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends, performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favorite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like? \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eRecording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a twelve-week period, and expanding on each session with her own reflective micro-essays, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions, and harmful behaviors that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, \u003ci\u003eI Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki \u003c\/i\u003eis a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness. It will appeal to anyone who has ever felt alone or unjustified in their everyday despair.\u003ch3\u003eAuthor Biography\u003c\/h3\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBorn in 1990, \u003cb\u003eBaek Sehee\u003c\/b\u003e studied creative writing in college before working for five years at a publishing house. For ten years, she received psychiatric treatment for dysthymia (persistent mild depression), which became the subject of her essays, and then \u003ci\u003eI Want to Die, but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki\u003c\/i\u003e. Her favorite food is tteokbokki, and she lives with her rescue dog, Jaram. \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cb\u003eAnton Hur\u003c\/b\u003e was born in Stockholm, Sweden. 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